i want a new brain
a new personality
it’s the only way i can get rid of this illness
and when i had a melt down over not being able to get my meds?
in front of her
would it not click then?
i need help
again
(so needy)
i was discharged in april
too ashamed to tell you all because now i’m the definition of fat
why does the world hate me?
my mum knows that when i sleep/stay in bed all day that i’m deep into my depression..
when it all started she said she did realise it but didn’t connect
now she can connect
so why doesn’t she
because i’m fat
so everything must be ok
Head spinning, coughing - crying too much.
It’s the numbing feeling that is the worst thing about it. I don’t comprehend the world around me; everything is so detached. I can’t feel anything.
Gonna go stuff my face with brownies
Then vomit them up
Because I can.
God, my eating disorder has mood swings..
