May 2012
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i might aswell post a blank post my words are meaningless
so insignificant
i shouldn’t expect anyone to care
i’ve said enough… pointless
i want a new brain a new personality
it’s the only way i can get rid of this illness
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and when i had a melt down over not being able to get my meds? in front of her would it not click then?
i need help again (so needy) i was discharged in april too ashamed to tell you all because now i’m the definition of fat
why does the world hate me? my mum knows that when i sleep/stay in bed all day that i’m deep into my depression.. when it all started she said she did realise it but didn’t connect now she can connect so why doesn’t she
because i’m fat so everything must be ok
Head spinning, coughing - crying too much.
There are no words to describe how lonely and sad...
mesfantome:
It’s the numbing feeling that is the worst thing about it. I don’t comprehend the world around me; everything is so detached. I can’t feel anything.
Gonna go stuff my face with brownies Then vomit them up
Because I can.
God, my eating disorder has mood swings..
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Q: What are all those scars on your arm from?
A: Rough sex.
Are you a fucking IDIOT?!?!?!!!
My mum gingerly walks into my room asking, “Mia what’s wrong?”
I need to leave this fucking house I can’t wait till September. I need to move out NOW.
i’m so angry i can’t express it throwing food at the wall doesn’t help screaming at the top of my lungs to my dad saying i won’t eat doesn’t do shit stuffing a chocolate bar in my face and then purging it makes me feel worse
i really need to fucking cut
all
over
my
body
My mum is “ill” and is therefore eating toast for dinner I want to take my chicken that’s drowning in sauce and throw it over her head I’M SO ANGRY
If I need to eat then she fucking does too
I want to rip out my stomach
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Wow, so many new followers Um, hello everyone I’m boring and you really shouldn’t follow me
On another note, I’ve been crying over each meal I’ve been made to eat today I don’t want the damn chicken tonight, please don’t make me eat it
zantean asked: You say that you don't want to do art because you will fuck it up, but that's the best thing about art; you never can. After all, do what makes you happy.
Why does my mum feel the need to tell me whenever she reads in the newspaper about deaths related to anorexia? She sits there, listing off how low their weight was and how tall they were and how their heart just stopped, gave in from malnutrition..
May aswell sit there and chant Nananana naana You’re not ill enough Failed your eating disorder Fail at everythiiiiing Go and kill yourseeeelf...
April 2012
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I have a lactose intolerance thanks to my eating disorder. Now I have another twisted way of purging.. And not just purging, but making myself bedridden I feel so ill. Why do I do this to myself?
queefjerkey:
my hidden talent is letting all of my homework and other obligations pile up until the very last minute so i can crack under the pressure and have a mental breakdown
In basic terms, I think my depression comes from anger. I suppose the eating disorder comes from both of the above.
And right now I’m fucking ANGRY I don’t want to eat because I’m FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT don’t deserve food I don’t Don’t want to sleep because I’ll have nightmares Don’t want to do art because I’ll fuck it up
The...
I can’t handle these flashbacks
I need everything inside of me OUT Need to purge need to purge need to purge
My grandpa died two weeks ago today. I wouldn’t really say that’s the cause of it, but I haven’t been coping very well since.
All I seem to do is sleep all day. And all night.
I have such simple messages to reply to, it really doesn’t take a lot of concentration, just typing.. Like I am now. So why is it easy for me to type this useless post and not reply to my darlings? Sometimes it takes days. Sometimes I leave it for weeks. I honestly don’t know why, but I just…can’t sometimes. I’m sorry. I’m not ignoring any of you, I love you but...
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I really shouldn’t come on here when I’m in such a fragile state. Triggers me to fuck.
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